It's Time

Woke up startled and afraid to move

Mind filled with anxious thoughts, I am so confused

Wanted to pray, but the words wouldn't form

Heart racing, focus broken, mind torn

Opened my mouth not a word would escape

Battle in the mind, thoughts coming a thousand at a time,

 trapped by fear.

Look to my nightstand, eye searching for the book. Frantic, I could find it no matter how hard I looked.

Can't take it, it's too much to bear, I need an escape, out of the morning  air I hear

 Trust me, follow me. I am here, follow me and I believe I will always take care of you

not good enough thoughts rang out,

done too much wrong. pitifully and weak.

Lord, said let the weak say I am. Strong

What are you talking about?

I got to get cleaned up before I come

Then the Lord said what if I told you, in the next  moment your life is done?

Panic set in, I have to decide, come humbly or die in sinful pride.

What do I do, think, you have to decide

A voice deep within me, said I am ready, I made of my mind.

Before I knew it, I blurted out I guess its time.

Time to for what the Lord replied

For me to stop running, making excuses and serve you.

I tried it on my own, and tired of kicking against the pricks. I am ready to submit to your purpose and plan.